Parched - land.

Long ago, I thought, even if I was the last man/human on earth, I would still like to be the happy at those moments - coz I love to live life.

Haha - I don't know if I still retain the same thought. It is fair to say, life has given me enough moments to feel not so eager to that thought or life itself.

Sometimes, it is good to have some love in life. Love in all it's forms - affection, care, closeness intimate blah blah. One also needs to be shown to be loved.

Nevertheless. Parched - land that yearns for a drop of water...and more of water.

Burning away.

I have a particular habit. I mask many things quite well.

But right now, I'm literally burning, some of this I can never mask. Yet, I mask. 

If only my help can be taken.

BABA Movie Scene

There is this scene in BABA movie.

I had seen this scene many times before and have always liked the reasoning that Thalaivar character makes in that movie. His deliberations inside his mind felt very insightful as it would present the reality of the life ahead of him in a married life.

Even after having seen, understood, bought in to this philosophy, I wonder why I had done the path prescribed against. Hehe.

Heartache makes me appreciate the deliberations and the feelings expressed in this scene. Having said that, logical mind questions another aspect: 

"if the trouble of married life or (forget the marriage custom) being with a companion + having the next gen/child, raising it is hard", 

If the mother/father character of the Thalaivar character in the movie had thought the same, would he have existed in the first place ? 

(Hello: grandfather paradox theory in time travel concept)

So, this thought process is all about avoiding certain responsibilities ? is it a bit selfish? 

Nevertheless, heart-ache it is.