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BABA Movie Scene

There is this scene in BABA movie.

I had seen this scene many times before and have always liked the reasoning that Thalaivar character makes in that movie. His deliberations inside his mind felt very insightful as it would present the reality of the life ahead of him in a married life.

Even after having seen, understood, bought in to this philosophy, I wonder why I had done the path prescribed against. Hehe.

Heartache makes me appreciate the deliberations and the feelings expressed in this scene. Having said that, logical mind questions another aspect: 

"if the trouble of married life or (forget the marriage custom) being with a companion + having the next gen/child, raising it is hard", 

If the mother/father character of the Thalaivar character in the movie had thought the same, would he have existed in the first place ? 

(Hello: grandfather paradox theory in time travel concept)

So, this thought process is all about avoiding certain responsibilities ? is it a bit selfish? 

Nevertheless, heart-ache it is.

Chronic Thirst & fatigue

When you bear bear and bear......and sometimes you don't even want to share your thirst/sorrow, for the fear of -1) coming across as excessively sensitive & not man enough and 2) it affecting your parents, all you are left with is fatigue.

Chronic fatigue. Lack of appetite for life. 

Hence, I say, my spirit is lost. Whatever.