hmm | Kavidhai | Priya Bhavani Shankar

I watched Karu Palaniappan speech. As that is what came in my YouTube fees. He spoke a small incident about Priya Bhavani Shankar and later about Manushya Puthiran and his novel. As always, Karu Palaniappan has a way with his speech and narration and it went well for 20 odd minutes. 

YouTube & algorithms for their magic and Priya Bhavani Shankar video got recommended to me in YouTube home page. I like Priya Bhavani Shankar (PBS) - so I clicked to watch it.

Side note - I had no idea about PBS but liked Meyaadha maan movie. After this movie I learnt that she was a former Tamil news anchor and pivoted towards film industry. My sister knew about her.... apparently coz some people have said her mannerisms and my sis mannerisms matched somewhat it seems. I dismissed the similarities when my sister said to me in 2018 - saying it was too much. However, few years later, I also noticed such similarities in speaking, mannerisms etc and told her and she reminded me that I was late.

Nevertheless, I liked PBS coz she felt sort of like a friend or neighborhood girl; that's how she came across for me. No airs during the few interviews she had given. Typical Tamil girl. Guess she studies somewhere at Crescent or nearby somewhere. All of these apart, she felt like she could be any other girl. That's all. Also, she had correct views, including some views about current events/politics etc - as I heardher opinion in one of the videos. She was also candid and bold enough to say it 

I really wish she does even more projects as she is truly capable enough to do meaty roles - I feel she is as capable as Simran, if not more. She does more ad photoshoots than movies which I hope changes soon.

Coming to this video, I liked how she is coming for a book fair and not any other fancy store opening etc. Not that it is bad to attend store opening, that is a good publicity & remuneration for artists but fact that she also chooses to come to book fair is what I like about her. Second, to be invited to a book launch, she ought to be known to the author and to be know to the author, conveys her reading inclination and socializing beyond just glitz and glamor aspect of things and in to grey matter (reading/intellluct) connect is an indicator of her intellluct as well 

I loved the two kavidhais she read out from the book, especially the one about someone 10 years later also not closing something fully but keeping a tiny opening. Hmmm....

Kavidhai was good. PBS picking that was good. Her narration also is good.

https://youtu.be/l7rzGfoV7FE

Waiting

 Waiting to do like this.....

Well I did feel this emotional release recently...in my own way....but posting a bit late, probably by 5-7 days.

Once life ceases

We ignore while life exists...

Once life ceases.....

We search for life in lifeless...

Meaning in meaningless

And form symbols & routines

justice

Someone share the below on justice...... hmm

Emotional angle is as important

pretty bad time

There is a lot that I can elaborate but seems like it will only end up making my writing less inspirational or one heck of cowardice writing.

Having said that..... Things are pretty bad. Like real bad.

I usually shrug or get back to normalcy although my mind keeps churning. But things are at a stat where its like everywhere it is churning.

I'm unable to bear & for some instances, I'm the csuse of the issues as well. Sad part is that, I'm not gifted in having a solace to share things and be understood as well.

Life is a lot of parallel lines. Many of us are facing lot of issues....so, its all relative.

~ BE ~

Masthana Masthana

Masthana Masthana

Lantana vil Masthana

...

https://youtu.be/GS-Wx0op2Jo

Masthana Masthana

Yearn

Too much, sometimes.

Haha

Iruvar - இருவர்

https://youtu.be/6ZH2x42v-xY

https://youtu.be/QH0SD6k-_VY

https://youtu.be/QmSiq_F6p5A

kandukondain kandukondain - கண்டுகொண்டேன் கண்டுகொண்டேன்

https://youtu.be/cuiyfr3GsqI

Like most, I have always liked the pada pada Aidh character in this movie.

It was ARR music that got me back to Tabu/Ajith meeting at the end and the BGM.

Then, I stumbled upon this a few days ago...what to say. Just love this character. Big big eyes of Tabu especially.

This movie is well written - each character is so good and many are real. This character is particularly attractive coz there are ambitions involved but situation deals a bad blow and the character deals with it so subtly realistic - the nod by Tabu st 24 secs - is so real and hitting the heart.

As a tribute and honoring women, I post this as many women around us are this way. Silent but strong and striving in their own manner, while managing other responsibilities etc. They may or may not end up being trailblazers but they are the movers who push the humanity forward.

Sadly the director's next Saevam thala mayam didn't address the casteism aspect - it soft punched it

Parched - land.

Long ago, I thought, even if I was the last man/human on earth, I would still like to be the happy at those moments - coz I love to live life.

Haha - I don't know if I still retain the same thought. It is fair to say, life has given me enough moments to feel not so eager to that thought or life itself.

Sometimes, it is good to have some love in life. Love in all it's forms - affection, care, closeness intimate blah blah. One also needs to be shown to be loved.

Nevertheless. Parched - land that yearns for a drop of water...and more of water.

Burning away.

I have a particular habit. I mask many things quite well.

But right now, I'm literally burning, some of this I can never mask. Yet, I mask. 

If only my help can be taken.

BABA Movie Scene

There is this scene in BABA movie.

I had seen this scene many times before and have always liked the reasoning that Thalaivar character makes in that movie. His deliberations inside his mind felt very insightful as it would present the reality of the life ahead of him in a married life.

Even after having seen, understood, bought in to this philosophy, I wonder why I had done the path prescribed against. Hehe.

Heartache makes me appreciate the deliberations and the feelings expressed in this scene. Having said that, logical mind questions another aspect: 

"if the trouble of married life or (forget the marriage custom) being with a companion + having the next gen/child, raising it is hard", 

If the mother/father character of the Thalaivar character in the movie had thought the same, would he have existed in the first place ? 

(Hello: grandfather paradox theory in time travel concept)

So, this thought process is all about avoiding certain responsibilities ? is it a bit selfish? 

Nevertheless, heart-ache it is.

Just don't expect from anyone

Just don't expect from anyone.

Not your parents.

Not your companion.

Not your progeny.

Not anybody who ever said they will do.

Just do what is required yourselves.

Delegation can work in office but only due to work structure. Even there or in politics, if you would be held responsible, you better follow up and ensure all is done.

I always thought I had a spiritual journey - situations may actually happily accelerate it.

Chronic Thirst & fatigue

When you bear bear and bear......and sometimes you don't even want to share your thirst/sorrow, for the fear of -1) coming across as excessively sensitive & not man enough and 2) it affecting your parents, all you are left with is fatigue.

Chronic fatigue. Lack of appetite for life. 

Hence, I say, my spirit is lost. Whatever.

Despirited - sad

I really don't know what or how to express - but yes - my spirit is probably lost. 

It is more than sad. Personally, what defines me is being taken away from me - ever so carelessly with lack of understanding.

Even wanting to write has diminished coz what point ?

NewYork Nagaram

In one of my earlier posts, un-changing, I had mentioned about how some songs just transport me back in time.

Happened to think of this song and I immediately played it on youtube, closed my eyes and just listened to it. Although I like the way this song was pictured or shot visually, I just wanted to listen to it. My thoughts wandered to the year 2006 and for some reason, my memory serves this song with Chennai's rainy season, night time cab rides and the wet roads. May be that is when I have heard this song often. I'm also able to recollect my home from 2007, where I remember humming this song in the hall while watching it on TV. 

At 1:41, I love how Jo would slip in to the chair nonchalantly after the camera just moved past it and pretend as if she had been sitting all the time. Likewise, at 4:32, va anbe, neeyum vandhai, how Jo would just walk right in to the stretched arms of Surya (although holding the railings) as if it is her place and also like a lego piece completing him. Btw, I have always loved the Black or dark blue blazer with blue shirt combination of Surya's costume.  Also, I have always tried to hum the following bits and would still try now as well: 

• at 3:16 oooooh oh oh oh oho oh oooooho ohhhooooo and will end up losing my breath.
• at 4:40 ye ye ye ye ye yayi yayi yayiii

In 2006, this song came across like a breath of fresh air, synonyms with the name of the movie - chillunu oru kadhal. I like almost all the songs of this movie - it all felt new but more so in a calming soothing way. In a recent interview, Jo shared that this song was not shot in NY, contrary to the name of the song. I realized this the first time I saw this song as the landscape and the city background shown at various times felt distinctly not NY and more like European.

(May be) Human is Divine

May be Human is Divine.

What is divine ? why this term divine or god - used to compare human? Why can't be human be just human. Btw, how is the "term" god different from the "term" good ?

Trouble is - there is no single definition of what is good. What is good can be totally otherwise in a different set up or later time or may be not. 

The difficulty is determining what is good or bad - may be it is all a perspective (something I wrote a long while back - about 14-15 years ago). 

So what is god then ? ok too much of a digression and wandering on this topic. 

In an earlier post - Aham  Brahmasmi - I shared a video. In this post, I'm going to share a bunch of them - ones that I have liked.

May be Human is Divine

Evan da saami ? Aham Brahmasmi

அக்கரமத்தை பார்த்து கொதிச்சு எழுறே அத்தனை பேரும் சாமி தான் டா

சாமியே உள்ளேயே வச்சிக்கிட்டு வெளிய தேடுறாங்க 

முன்ன பின்ன தெரியாத ஒரு பையனுக்காக கண்ணீர் விடுறே அந்த மனசு இருக்கே, அது தான் கடவுள். என் னா நானும் கடவுள். 


புரியலே லே - புரிய கூடாது அதான் கடவுள் 

Anbe Sivam - has a bunch of good scenes.
Link 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fk62UuX3rHw
Link 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d7BIFuWmt3s


God is nowhere --> god is now here

This is probably one of the best scenes where the need for god is discussed in realistic terms.

haha - in this video, at 13 secs, my name comes :) 

“நானும் இல்லையடி நாதனும் இல்லையடி: தானும் இல்லையடி: சற்குரு இல்லையடி"

I would like to make the title for this video like this.

God is nowhere <--> god is now here

The reason why I choose to be a vegetarian

This is the reason why I want to remain a vegetarian - and avoid animal products.

Not for religion. Not for crap caste

96 Movie

96 Tamil Movie 

பேரன்பே காதல்

உள்நோக்கி ஆடுகின்ற ஆடல்.

சதா, ஆறாத ஆவல்

ஏதேதோ சாயல்

ஏற்றி திரியும் காதல்

பிரத்யேக தேடல்

தீயில் தீராத காற்றில்

புல்  பூண்டில் புழுவில்

உளதில் இலதில் .

தானே, எல்லாமும் ஆகி

நாம் காணும் ரூபமே

இத்தியாகி காதல்.

இல்லாத போதும்

தேடும் தேடல்

சதா, மாறாது காதல்

மன்றாடும் போதும்

மாற்று கருத்தில் மோதும்

மாளாத ஊடல்.

ஆ.. ஆ..

ஆ.. ஆ..

நாம் இந்த தீயில்

வீடு கட்டும் தீக்குச்சி.

நாம் இந்த காற்றில்

ஊஞ்சல் கட்டும் தூசி.

நாம் இந்த நீரில்

வாழ்க்கை ஓட்டும்  நீர் பூச்சி.

நாம் இந்த காம்பில்

காமத்தின் ருசி.

காதல் கண்ணீரில்  சிலந்தி

காதல் விண்மீனின் மெகந்தி

காதல் மெய்யான வதந்தி

காலந்தோறும் தொடரும் டைரி

காதல் தெய்வீக எதிரி

காதல் சாத்தானின் விசிறி

காதல் ஆன்மாவின்  புலரி

வாழ்ந்து பெட்ர டிகிரி

ஓர்  விடைகுள்ளே

வினாவெல்லாம் பதுங்குதேஆ... நான் கரைந்ததே

மறைந்ததே முடிந்ததே ஆ...

கொஞ்சும் பூரணமே வா

நீ கொஞ்சம் எழிலிசையே

பஞ்ச வர்ண பூதம்

நெஞ்சம் நெறையுதே

காண்பதெல்லாம் காதலடி..

காதலே காதலே

தனிப்பெரும் துணையே

கூட வா கூட வா போதும் போதும்

காதலே காதலே வாழ்வின் நீளம்

போகலாம்  போகவா  நீ....

ஆ திகம்பரி

வலம்புரி

சுயம்பு நீ

ஆ..பிரகாரம் நீ

பிரபாவம் நீ

பிரபாகம்  நீ நீ

ஆ.. ஆ.. சிங்காரம் நீ

ஆங்காரம் நீ

ஓங்காரம் நீ நீ நீ

அந்தாதி நீ அந்தாதி நீ

அந்தாதி நீ நீ

ம்ம்ம் தேட வேண்டாம்
முன் அறிவிப்பின்றி வரும்
அதன் வருகையை
இதயம் உரக்க சொல்லும்

காதல்..காதல்
ஒரு நாள் உங்களை வந்தடையும்
அதை அள்ளி அனைத்துக்கொள்ளுங்கள்
அன்பாக பார்த்து கொள்ளுங்கள்

காதல் தங்கும்
காதல் தயங்கும்
காதல் சிரிக்கும்
காதல் இனிக்கும்
காதல் கவிதைகள் வரையும்
காதல் கலங்கும்
காதல் குழம்பும்
காதல் ஓரளவுக்கு புரியும்
காதல் விலகும்
காதல் பிரியும்
கதவுகளை மூடாமல் வழி அனுப்புங்கள்.
காத்திருங்கள்.

ஒரு வேலை காதல் திரும்பினால்
தூரத்தில் தயங்கி நின்றால்.
அருகில் செல்லுங்கள்
அன்புடன் பேசுங்கள்
போதும் காதல் உங்கள் வசம்
உள்ளம் காதல் வசம்
மாற்றங்களே வினா
மாற்றங்களே விடை

காதல்