நான் வருவேன்

நான் வருவேன் ??

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ii_OzvtqHa4&t=111m50s
watch fully from this point onwards - 15 mins.

In the movie Raavanan, Maniratnam brings out a different perspective, some reflecting on the historical Raavan/Raman debate. He will convey it through the characters played in the movie. The true underlying character and motivation of the Dev - Raman (Prithviraj) character was brought out at 1hr:51m,51s. When I first watched it, I was wondering why would this Dev whatever person be speaking/implying such bad things about Ragini - Seetha character (Aishwarya), married wife, especially after what had happened. I was shocked and taken aback and felt like - oh this is bad. When Dev kept implying badness about Ragini, she reprimanded him. She kept contesting it first few times, reprimanding him and then later when she was hurt, she chose to walk away, in anger, disappointment and also to get justice/clarification for what was told by Dev. She met Veera - Raavanan (Vikram) to seek clarification - rightful clarification, to establish the truth. When she met veera, she asked what he had told to Dev and when Veera said the truth - as is - she was relieved. But more than relieved at that moment, she would also reveal that - Dev (her husband) said wrongly about her. Now, she said that truth to the man - who had kidnapped her to kill her. Veera character, however, was startled that Dev said such bad things - SP ஏன் சந்தேகம் படறாரு ? காரணம் காரியம் இல்லாமையா ? Veera realizes and connects the dot, he deduced the actual motivation of such an ill implied "vanmam" in the words. True to his deduction, the ill advised words were said with motivation and cleverly calculated to lead to the killing of Veera itself.

Now, if I overlay the above scenario to what had happened in the past, it looks eerily similar (ignore the actual roles). Beyond the initial enquiry, everything else had been motivated and calculated, to achieve what whatever wants ONLY, at any cost. Why would such an ill advised word - pros - be said? If not to attack the moral character and break the will power and intimidate somebody. Why would calls come to one's place/appa, if not to throw aspersion on character and force one to withdraw? When somebody conveyed intent, multiple times, why was it not listened to and family invoked always? why go back on the word told at airport when one showed up at the door? Even a year later, why would words such as "neenga nimmadhiyave iruka vida matten" ? [Completely ignorant of the fact that I had given up (unable to yet painfully said lip service) - considering somebody's hardships/ability and amma]. Why would calls come again to one's place when somebody else had conveyed the intent ? Why? And question like - eppadi valurthu irukeenga to all parents? who is whatever to give certificate freely to others except himself ? And the disgusting amorous activity afterwards - despite medications - whether considered new life for whatever or otherwise, is it based on true consent? Or was that true consent never sought or even understood or if understood, kept quiet and worked everything else to make things work - the thing that whatever wanted at all cost. காரணம் காரியம் இல்லாமையா? Irupadhu thappu illa anal irukradhu nu theriyanum....puriyanum. Irundhalum adhuthavanga unarvu illama namma karanam kaariyam mattum panna - adhu unmaiye kidyadhu. Poli. After kind of putting somebody in cage or realizing somebody is in cage, against wish, isn't taking care of them the least anybody can do, given that is what all the motivated action was directed towards. 

Genuineness is innate or born with - but it is also by choice. Why am I able to see the motivation and calculation - while somebody is not able to see? I could have also behaved with motivation right ? I chose to not be that way - painfully and sadly for me. Even now, I'm speaking all sides while none would even utter a single word of good for me. And, I'm really saying for manasatchi - better to be at-least true. Assuming, what I say is true. Nevertheless, I can be genuine and true but cannot afford to be fool. I believe in people in general and also (airport) but I cannot afford to fail in deducing the actual motivation, at-least at this point, in light of all that had happened. As it had happened in that scene, those motivation had already kind of killed/erased me - violently and medically too. 

At this point, I'm really afraid if I can - நான் வருவேன்?? - given the timed தவிப்பு at the manasu level. Heck, in that scene, Ragini character tried to protect Veera, the kidnapper, from the gunshots of Dev by coming to the front. Alas, I was not protected at all - so far - wish atleast an attempt made to save me now :( ?