Saturday, July 14, 2018

Chinna Thayaval | சின்ன தாயவள்

சின்ன தாயவள்



Once again, another wonderful composition from Isagnani Ilayaraja in the movie Thalapathy. Music, especially the background music by Ilayraja was playing a role as much as any of the main cast in this movie by Mani Ratnam - who is an atheist and made the wonderfully poignant Ravanan movie that showed characters from different perspective.

I had a habit of sharing Thalaivar's Then madurai Vaigai nadhi song - for friends birthday in Facebook. It is a wonderful song and probably one of the best birthday songs, in my opinion. Strangely, until recently, none has shared me a Thalaivar song, repeatedly. The music and words in this song convey emotions and feelings that far outlive the times. I'm ever thankful for the love that shared this song - a தாலாட்டு/lullaby that I seek, as she is a சின்ன தாய் as well.

Having said that, even in this song- a forsaken/abandoned son - sees the mother from a distance and the stifled emotional feelings are captured. I recently updated my as is blog at the end for the forsaken feeling. It is such a hard feeling - one I never wished on somebody ever and bear all the disappointments/pain - with the hope that being true will turn things around.



In the above video, if one were to see it fully, there are many things that can be commented about. At 2 min :12 sec when the police officer enquires Rajini, the emotion that comes out is a true testament to being forsaken/abandoned. While in the movie, it is about biological mother/son and the intensity is naturally high, the feeling nevertheless is same even otherwise for any forsaken soul.

Maniratnam would have have also shown a wonderful love between Rajini/Shobana, which is one of my favorite till date, that unfortunately didn't result in them being together. As we can see from this video, it is the father, who is like a god figure to the girl, taking a stand against it due to his own beliefs. Even after having being told that his daughter likes Rajini, he says it will happen on my dead body - clearly putting his views ahead of his daughter and her well being. At any rate, it was Shobana who agrees to abide by this as respect for her father and as a show of love for him. The question is - what would have Arvind Swamy done if he had known of the love of the girl he is about to marry or even after marriage ? Maniratnam crafted Arvind swamy character with such integrity/honesty - he was shown as reciting அச்சமில்லை அச்சமில்லை அச்சமென்ப தில்லையே to his father itself - he is likely to respect the girl's wish, despite it being against one's own. While it is not uncommon for parents to be extra protective and enforce their views on kids, it is still parents and although being wrong, it can evolve to be an obligation/respect/love angle for children to abide. However, how can one explain whatever enforcing his views/deceit/selfish/amorous needs ahead of the girls genuine wish and not stepping back? One can pardon the unwillingness for the first time due to shock or trying to look for oneself. But to go back on the word said in airport is nothing short of deceit and cheating. From then on, it is nothing short of deceit and silent deceit/cheating. To top it, even after repeated attempts, if the struggle of somebody is not felt everyday, what does it say about the true underlying character? And to continue in that context - disgustingly amorously all the time - and provide care/love ONLY acc to their wishful context and not address the real reason in meetings, is NOT genuine. To perceive it as one - Fuck that crap. Fuck That Crap. FUCK THAT CRAP

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Anyways, the truly forsaken soul, will only search for the madi - as it happened. 





However, to be repeatedly forgotten, ignored and as a choice, eventually forsaken (for lies, panividai, deceit), is too painful. Yetநனி நன்றி - as I miss. What chance do I or the feelings/truth I have shared have amidst the plethora of other emotions/activities/events/relations/weekends/considerations/obligations/AMAZONPRIME/compulsions/nadippu/sarasari/calls/moodswings/busy life? So, with the just a final hope for truth having a chance, for manasatchi sake, I have to regretfully, unwillingly, forsake myself. 

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